Second Collage "Valuable Time"

When I was around 8 years old I use to have a recurring dream about time. In this dream I was an observer inside a clock full of gears. This dream always frightened me because it represented death. I remember waking up in cold sweat crying and needing my mom or dad. My sister who shared a bed with me at the time would always try to calm me down on those nights. I always felt bad for her on the nights I woke up wanting my dad because at the time my mom and dad were in the process of getting a divorce therefore he did not live with us.  Reflecting on the divorce as an adult has helped me understand the reason why I had dreams which lead to my childhood anxieties of death.

This dream became my nightmare for many years. It followed me until early adulthood. This nightmare was horrible because to  know I had no control over stopping time from one day taking the people I love was the nightmare I did not want to face; a nightmare which is inevitable. My whole perspective in death has changed over the passing years. I've come to accept and face the fact of  our life-cycle. The new perspective has allowed me to understand death a little bit better.

My understanding of death starts with pure energy. Energy which is like the sun's. Energy which is in everyone and everything. Energy which is constant. I believe and feel that even if someone has passed they are not completely gone. Our memories, their teachings, their values, their causes, their love and conscience will continue to flow through us and everything around us. We are all connected. No one is gone. We are all here to fulfill a purpose. Time helps us  to complete our purpose and destination . It is up to us to use the time wisely in order to fulfill our true potential.

Being able to express  my energy into this art-piece titled, "Valuable Time" has helped me fulfill my purpose. I am very grateful :)