Deep Sea Cosmic

"People often compare probing the ocean to probing space. They usually mean to convey the idea of exploring the canyon sides and plains of a still largely unknown world. But blue-water diving is like being in space itself-in that void between stars and planets. Weightless and adrift without a frame of reference in any direction, you have a glimpse of infinity. It is at once beautiful, liberating, and frighteningly impersonal. You have found a way to slip the bonds of Earth and enter a new state of existence for a minute or two at a time." Douglas H. Chadwick

Reunited

                                                                                                Alex Grey


March 4, 2014

So it has been quite awhile since I last wrote into this blog site. So much has happen in the last couple of years. I don't remember the tiny details but I do remember the great big ones which has inspired and changed my perspective on this thing we call Life.

I still can not believe how wonderful my life has changed. My life has become so much more rich and alive. There's so much more purpose and drive to live a life full of love, appreciation, inspiration, and consciousness. The promises I had for myself and the world are being manifested now because of a gift that was meant to be. My son Mason Amadeus Alvarez came into my journey last year. Last year's journey was so awesome. There was so much change, mentally, physically and spiritually. Today I continue to grow but I feel with much more meaning, drive and promises for my son, myself and the world. 

One of my life's  promises is to take in the moments we are so blessed to have. I try my BEST to always be in the moment. Having my son has been teaching me that even more. I do have my struggles as well. I struggle with the everyday living mentality that life is about paying bills, making money, cleaning this, finishing that..blah..blah...blah. The list goes on. I find the "Everday Living Mentality" to be draining. I understand we do have responsibility but I'm learning to balance it and put it aside at times. I struggle and I do have my bad days (Ask my boyfriend..jaja), but I tell myself that as long as I DO MY BEST each day to try my best too make that difference then I am living my life's purpose.

Taking-in life's moments make life so much richer.When I'm with my son I just want to be "there" I want to be with him and not have my mind and energy be somewhere else ( example: bills, cooking, blah, blah, blah).  I always try to appreciate the moments.

So, that's one of my promises. I have a list already. My promises are making me make lifestyle or shall I say LIFE changes. I am training myself to be more conscious. I guess writing in this blog will help me with my promises. So now that my idea is on paper it must manifest. So here's to promise ONE.

*Nspire

An inspiring speech to keep one motivated and conscious.

A wonderful Metaphor for Incarnation

" The heavy diving suit is the physical body and the sea the ocean of life. At birth man assumes the diving suit, but his spirit is always connected by a line to the light above. Man descends into the depths of the sea of sorrow and mortality that he may find there the hidden treasures of wisdom, for experience and understanding are pearls of great price and to gain them man must bear all things. when the treasure has been found, or his  hours of labor are over, he is drawn back into the boat again, and taking off the heavy armor breaths the fresh air and feels free once more. Wise men realize that this incident we call life is only one trip to the bottom of the sea; that we have been down many times before and must go down many times again before we find the treasure."

From Life between Life pg. 11-12
By Joel L.Whitton, M.D., Ph.D and Joe Fisher

Hypnosis

April 4, 2011

My computer has been  hypnotizing me with it's ways..hehe. I have allowed the hypnosis to happen. I choose to  have my precious time taken away. So, now that I am aware of what is holding me back from living free I decided to take control. For this week I will stay away from it's hypnotic ways . My battle plan is to stay away from a website that sucks up my precious time! A website which is fine in moderation but if used consistently is a time drainer.  Okay enough of the bad mouthing. Before I mention the website I do have pro's about it. I think it's a great tool to bring awareness and keep in touch. It's a wonderful way to stay connected. The problem for me is for some reason this website draws me in! I stay in way longer then I should. I'm not saying this website is the only one thing that would drain one's time. There's lots of things that help with the wasting of time. Some of the these guilty parties are televisions, game systems,  and stupid shows like Jersey Show. Unfortunately my weakness is Facebook.

I don't know if any of you are addicted to Facebook but I'll stand up now and say, "Hello my name is Veronica and I'm a Facebook addict." I love Face-book! I  like knowing I get to bring happiness, hope and love to family, friends and even strangers. I  know I need to reclaim my freedom of something that's holding me back from creating my art, reading books and writing in my journal/blog. Okay so now that I know the opponent it's time for the battle plan of the week:

Mission 1: Avoid Face-book and unnecessary use of the internet use. I need to get back in touch with my art and living this life's journey.

Mission 2: Internet use will only be for blogging, research for classes, business, and listening to music.

Mission 3: Make more human connections through face to face contact or by voice.

Let's do this!

Trying to make that Change!

April 2, 2011

I haven't written for a couple of months. I guess writing takes to much work for me. But no one's reading my blogs so I'm not going to care much about my writting skills. I'm just going to write too write and allow the feelings to pour out.
Well life has been giving me lots to learn from these couple of months. My awakening subsided for awhile. It wasn't until these last two months that I felt my reawakening becoming  fully AWAKE. I have been feeling sensitive to energies around me. It's weird because I been feeling people's true motives to certain things they do. I guess you can say I've been feeling a deep connection to my environment and others.

But The most newest event happening in my life journey is becoming aware of my world. I have been really taking an interest into politics. I feel that knowing what happens in our world is very important. I want to make the difference of bringing awareness. I want to bring a voice of change. I want people to get out of their "bubble" and make a difference, make that change, show compassion, show passion into something which does not concern themselves but which concerns others. It's making the bond to be connected. To know we are all one and to know we are not alone.

It's disappointing to hear people say things like "I don't like reading or knowing what's happening in the world because I can't do anything" or "Why should I care if it's not happening here?" or "I have my own problems to worry about." What people fail to realize is whatever is happening around the world also effect us no matter the distance. An example I've been thinking about a lot lately is the events happening in Japan. The nuclear reactors have a huge impact how it will shape our world and our environment. Everything is a chain reaction a sequence. The reactor leaks radioactive particles into the ocean, the ocean then feeds the particles to the fish, humans and other sea animals eat the radioactive fish then we get sick. Then people wonder why there is so much illnesses around or why our precious ocean is dying. Or another example is Governors Jerry's Brown cuts on programs to the elderly, education, the poor and on the children. We have the power to make a change. To be a voice. To stand up for what we believe in. To stand up for what is right.

If the majority chooses to stay in their "bubble" what changes will we see? What will be our future?. Yes it takes work and in a society which is nothing but convenience it is a challenge. But a challenge which is achievable. It's just knowing how to get there and that's my current mission right now in my life.

Second Collage "Valuable Time"

When I was around 8 years old I use to have a recurring dream about time. In this dream I was an observer inside a clock full of gears. This dream always frightened me because it represented death. I remember waking up in cold sweat crying and needing my mom or dad. My sister who shared a bed with me at the time would always try to calm me down on those nights. I always felt bad for her on the nights I woke up wanting my dad because at the time my mom and dad were in the process of getting a divorce therefore he did not live with us.  Reflecting on the divorce as an adult has helped me understand the reason why I had dreams which lead to my childhood anxieties of death.

This dream became my nightmare for many years. It followed me until early adulthood. This nightmare was horrible because to  know I had no control over stopping time from one day taking the people I love was the nightmare I did not want to face; a nightmare which is inevitable. My whole perspective in death has changed over the passing years. I've come to accept and face the fact of  our life-cycle. The new perspective has allowed me to understand death a little bit better.

My understanding of death starts with pure energy. Energy which is like the sun's. Energy which is in everyone and everything. Energy which is constant. I believe and feel that even if someone has passed they are not completely gone. Our memories, their teachings, their values, their causes, their love and conscience will continue to flow through us and everything around us. We are all connected. No one is gone. We are all here to fulfill a purpose. Time helps us  to complete our purpose and destination . It is up to us to use the time wisely in order to fulfill our true potential.

Being able to express  my energy into this art-piece titled, "Valuable Time" has helped me fulfill my purpose. I am very grateful :)

Every Penny counts!!

December 29, 2010

So yesterday I had to empty my piggy bank in order not to overdraft. My first mission was trying not to break my artful piggy bank. Having to flip my piggy upside down  in order to take out the coins using only a butter knife was a task which required patience. A task I was willing to endure for the sake of not over-drafting my bank account and saving my beautiful piggy. The first few minutes of excavating my coins was disappointing :( The only coins coming out were pennies!! I knew I had put lot's of quarters in my piggy but why we're they not coming out?? As the time went on I finally got everything out!

I was so happy to finally have my coins out. As I started to get ready to count I felt a bit disappointed because I had a lot of pennies.As I looked at my pennies I said to myself  "these pennies will not get me much, they don't matter." As I finished counting I was amazed to know I had six dollars in pennies!!! but the beautiful thing was six dollars wasn't my grand total. The grand total of all my coins coming together was thirty six dollars.

Going through this experience taught me two valuable lessons. The first lesson was not to under estimate the value of a penny. The second lesson was a deep understanding on how ones person efforts to making a positive difference in this world is just like that one penny. WE ALL MATTER.

First collage "The Awakening"

AWAKEN from the dream world. The dream world which evolves around beauty, greed, temptations, hate, jealousy, gossip, and conformity. A dream which keeps one chained from truly being free. AWAKENING of our  inner-eye; the eye of knowledge leds to freedom.

We have the power to choose the direction we want in our lives. Through our choices we grow just like a seed and through those experiences we later become wise.

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Brainwashed to believe that the true purpose to life is to achieve outer beauty, we then conform to be what everyone else thinks is beautiful.

The truth is to love the inner-self. Everyone is original just like a snowflake.

 

Greed and Temptation leaves to hate and suffering. It's one of the root causes for destruction.

The eye of knowledge which leads to true freedom.

Learning to Balance Things

 I've been working on how to balance my spiritual journey and my relationship with my boyfriend. It takes a lot of work for me. I have to reflect on why this part of me is a challenge.

Things I Learned While Driving Today.

 For the last couple of days I've been noticing myself getting upset at other drivers. So I started to think of ways to calm myself down. Here is what I came up with so far: 

• 1. Everyone has their own things going on in their life. They are not mindful of what's around them because they are preoccupied with their own thoughts. I WILL NOT be judgmental with other drivers motives.

• 2. Do not give rude drivers my energy, they don't deserve it. Focus on something else.

• 3. Most people put their own negative energy unto others. Do not take things personal.

• 4. I can not control the traffic so there is no use in being upset over the things I have no control over. Just go with the flow.

I'm hoping these thoughts will make my driving experience more positive.

Does anyone have their own positive thoughts or techniques while driving??

Self-Doudt

Hello Warrior

So yesterday I was self-doubting myself about this blog and whether I was able to live a positive lifestyle.I also found myself wanting to go back too the easier, simpler,non-conscience lifestyle. I didn't want to work on constantly being conscience about my actions or feelings. But it's funny because even if I didn't want to work on being conscience about my feelings, I still stopped to ask  myself why I was feeling those emotions. The conclusion to those feelings were my self-doubt and the lack of wanting to work. So now that I discovered the issue for my emotions I will remember my belief on personal growth and work on what I want manifested in my life. I will not give up. I must remember I am a WARRIOR against such negative thoughts. 

To live is to choose. But to choose well,
you must know who you are and what you stand for,
where you want to go and why you want to get there.
- Kofi Annan

The Neverending Story

I love the scene in "The Never Ending Story" where the little warrior Atreyus has to walk through the Swamp of Despair. Atreyus loses hope after meeting a wise ancient turtle who tells him it's impossible to save Fantasia. He leaves the wise turtle to walk back too the Swamp which swallows anyone who gives into the emotion. I love the directors symbolization of threading through mud to signify the struggle one has without hope.

I don't think of all the misery but of the beauty that still remains.
- Anne Frank

The Beginging of a Beautiful Friendship

October 24th, 2010

Hello to anyone reading this blog :) I decided today to create a blog based on my journey which I call LIFE.  I will use this blog just as I would a journal. I have always kept a journal throughout my journey. I remember my first journal  at the age of 13.My best friend Priscilla brought my first. I still remember how happy I was to receive a gift from her. The journal she gave me was blue and had different color pages which smelled!! I remember wanting to finish writing in it because I wanted to reach a new color page. I really loved my journal and still do. I'm not embarrassed to say I still have my first journal. As a matter of fact I have kept all 12 of my journals.

Reading my journals allows me to take a trip back in time and reflect on my personal growth. I sometimes surprise myself on past choices and actions. Writing in journals also allows me to take a inner snapshot of what I am feeling. I believe journals to be very therapeutic for personal and spiritual growth. It is a form of meditation for me. 

So now that I've introduced my Journal writing, On too the reason for this blog site. Lately my life has changed. I came to a realization that my life and life in general is more then money, popularity, or beauty. I believe life to be based on love,compassion, helping one another, learning not to judge, letting go of grudges and anger, spiritual growth, finding one's self-worth, happiness and inspiring others. These are the changes I choose to lead me in my journey. 

I will post quotes , journal entries,artworks, music or any thing else which inspires me to lead a more positive lifestyle. In the process I also hope to inspire and give love to anyone who needs it. 

Thank you for taking this journey with me :) 

Your friend always *Inspire*