Hypnosis

April 4, 2011

My computer has been  hypnotizing me with it's ways..hehe. I have allowed the hypnosis to happen. I choose to  have my precious time taken away. So, now that I am aware of what is holding me back from living free I decided to take control. For this week I will stay away from it's hypnotic ways . My battle plan is to stay away from a website that sucks up my precious time! A website which is fine in moderation but if used consistently is a time drainer.  Okay enough of the bad mouthing. Before I mention the website I do have pro's about it. I think it's a great tool to bring awareness and keep in touch. It's a wonderful way to stay connected. The problem for me is for some reason this website draws me in! I stay in way longer then I should. I'm not saying this website is the only one thing that would drain one's time. There's lots of things that help with the wasting of time. Some of the these guilty parties are televisions, game systems,  and stupid shows like Jersey Show. Unfortunately my weakness is Facebook.

I don't know if any of you are addicted to Facebook but I'll stand up now and say, "Hello my name is Veronica and I'm a Facebook addict." I love Face-book! I  like knowing I get to bring happiness, hope and love to family, friends and even strangers. I  know I need to reclaim my freedom of something that's holding me back from creating my art, reading books and writing in my journal/blog. Okay so now that I know the opponent it's time for the battle plan of the week:

Mission 1: Avoid Face-book and unnecessary use of the internet use. I need to get back in touch with my art and living this life's journey.

Mission 2: Internet use will only be for blogging, research for classes, business, and listening to music.

Mission 3: Make more human connections through face to face contact or by voice.

Let's do this!

Trying to make that Change!

April 2, 2011

I haven't written for a couple of months. I guess writing takes to much work for me. But no one's reading my blogs so I'm not going to care much about my writting skills. I'm just going to write too write and allow the feelings to pour out.
Well life has been giving me lots to learn from these couple of months. My awakening subsided for awhile. It wasn't until these last two months that I felt my reawakening becoming  fully AWAKE. I have been feeling sensitive to energies around me. It's weird because I been feeling people's true motives to certain things they do. I guess you can say I've been feeling a deep connection to my environment and others.

But The most newest event happening in my life journey is becoming aware of my world. I have been really taking an interest into politics. I feel that knowing what happens in our world is very important. I want to make the difference of bringing awareness. I want to bring a voice of change. I want people to get out of their "bubble" and make a difference, make that change, show compassion, show passion into something which does not concern themselves but which concerns others. It's making the bond to be connected. To know we are all one and to know we are not alone.

It's disappointing to hear people say things like "I don't like reading or knowing what's happening in the world because I can't do anything" or "Why should I care if it's not happening here?" or "I have my own problems to worry about." What people fail to realize is whatever is happening around the world also effect us no matter the distance. An example I've been thinking about a lot lately is the events happening in Japan. The nuclear reactors have a huge impact how it will shape our world and our environment. Everything is a chain reaction a sequence. The reactor leaks radioactive particles into the ocean, the ocean then feeds the particles to the fish, humans and other sea animals eat the radioactive fish then we get sick. Then people wonder why there is so much illnesses around or why our precious ocean is dying. Or another example is Governors Jerry's Brown cuts on programs to the elderly, education, the poor and on the children. We have the power to make a change. To be a voice. To stand up for what we believe in. To stand up for what is right.

If the majority chooses to stay in their "bubble" what changes will we see? What will be our future?. Yes it takes work and in a society which is nothing but convenience it is a challenge. But a challenge which is achievable. It's just knowing how to get there and that's my current mission right now in my life.

Second Collage "Valuable Time"

When I was around 8 years old I use to have a recurring dream about time. In this dream I was an observer inside a clock full of gears. This dream always frightened me because it represented death. I remember waking up in cold sweat crying and needing my mom or dad. My sister who shared a bed with me at the time would always try to calm me down on those nights. I always felt bad for her on the nights I woke up wanting my dad because at the time my mom and dad were in the process of getting a divorce therefore he did not live with us.  Reflecting on the divorce as an adult has helped me understand the reason why I had dreams which lead to my childhood anxieties of death.

This dream became my nightmare for many years. It followed me until early adulthood. This nightmare was horrible because to  know I had no control over stopping time from one day taking the people I love was the nightmare I did not want to face; a nightmare which is inevitable. My whole perspective in death has changed over the passing years. I've come to accept and face the fact of  our life-cycle. The new perspective has allowed me to understand death a little bit better.

My understanding of death starts with pure energy. Energy which is like the sun's. Energy which is in everyone and everything. Energy which is constant. I believe and feel that even if someone has passed they are not completely gone. Our memories, their teachings, their values, their causes, their love and conscience will continue to flow through us and everything around us. We are all connected. No one is gone. We are all here to fulfill a purpose. Time helps us  to complete our purpose and destination . It is up to us to use the time wisely in order to fulfill our true potential.

Being able to express  my energy into this art-piece titled, "Valuable Time" has helped me fulfill my purpose. I am very grateful :)

Every Penny counts!!

December 29, 2010

So yesterday I had to empty my piggy bank in order not to overdraft. My first mission was trying not to break my artful piggy bank. Having to flip my piggy upside down  in order to take out the coins using only a butter knife was a task which required patience. A task I was willing to endure for the sake of not over-drafting my bank account and saving my beautiful piggy. The first few minutes of excavating my coins was disappointing :( The only coins coming out were pennies!! I knew I had put lot's of quarters in my piggy but why we're they not coming out?? As the time went on I finally got everything out!

I was so happy to finally have my coins out. As I started to get ready to count I felt a bit disappointed because I had a lot of pennies.As I looked at my pennies I said to myself  "these pennies will not get me much, they don't matter." As I finished counting I was amazed to know I had six dollars in pennies!!! but the beautiful thing was six dollars wasn't my grand total. The grand total of all my coins coming together was thirty six dollars.

Going through this experience taught me two valuable lessons. The first lesson was not to under estimate the value of a penny. The second lesson was a deep understanding on how ones person efforts to making a positive difference in this world is just like that one penny. WE ALL MATTER.